Whatever

Last night: Mom:"If I send you a friend request on fb will you accept?" Me: "No." Mom: Why not? Me:"Cause I don't want to!" and I go to my room. haha Yeahh...went to church, went to Marc Cocjins house and just chilled. Then we went to Pat & Oscars with Marc A, Martin, Dale, and Megan. haha yeahh. Now at home.


I really miss you. I think about you sometimes...and this week at one point I dreamt about you 3 days straight. Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday night. haha prolly weird to you but thats how much you mean to my heart. My brain doesnt want you but theres always that spot where you belong.

"I don't want to walk this earth if I gotta do it solo."


Thanks to Sherwin for posting this song. haha

Fun day

I had labs...but then I stayed for all the basketball games. First two were good. But the Boys Varsity got heated up. haha Number 5 looked like he wanted to kill someone. haha Can't really explain...but fights almost broke out. Tim Giang and Jason Abdul-Karim....I'm proud on how they played it cool. Good job. But yeahhhh. Thats about my day. I got home at around 9? Then I ate...and my mom was still downstairs...I told her to go upstairs and sleep and she said its ok...I'll sleep down here for now. And she's still downstairs. Maybe my parents are fighting? haha Idk...I hope not. Christmas 08 was the worst. My parents fought over spending money...and then my mom started crying and told me to choose who I want to stay with. :( Then they didnt talk to each other for about a month...then everything got better. haha Hopefully my mom is just to tired too go upstairs. Please! haha

Actions mean alot. And today you showed it. And it really hit me. I really don't know what got into me. I'm gonna try to change that. WHEN I know exactly what to do and say.

I feel like its all my fault. But I don't know if its even me.

Bible camp

looked bomb. haha Me and Grant promised each other that we would go next year. haha So Grant...do your part and I'll do mine. I'm glad my friends had fun though. If Greg, Ferrenstein, Larry, and Chandler go to bible camp and say that its fun...then thats saying something. But anyways...while they were away for the weekend, I worked out and everytime I sneeze or cough my "abs" hurt. haha seriously though. If I sit for like a minute and I get up...my legs hurt like crazy. Regular weekend. Church, lunch with family, sleep/rest, play ball. Then sundays are laundry and football. haha And now its almost school again. Gayyy.

Today was Ok. School wasn't hard. Everything is easy for now. I actually love the rain. Except driving. Driving in the rain makes everyhing slower...SERIOUSLY. Its gonna be boring tomorrow cause everyone is up at bible camp. But then tomorrows my chance to see how it feels like to have no one to talk to. haha It might feel good though...cause you know...I like to be alone sometimes. Help me think of all the shit I have to fix and all the stuff I have to do. But yeah. I guess thats it.


:) and :(

I wanna see how it feels like to have no friends.

4 day weekend

was really relaxing. I just did whatever. You know, go places or stay home and I either watched t.v. and on the computer or play madden and on the computer. haha So just now my mom asked me to help her put in a dvd cause her friend gave her filipino dvds to watch. And then I put one in and then it showed the previews of other filipino movies. And "BFF" with Sharon and Ai-Ai came on. And I watched that on the plane ride back from P.I. so then I started missing Philippines again :( I told my mom that I watched that when I was on the plane and she was like, "Oh! Your auntie gave BFF too!" and she was right! There was a dvd there that was labeled "BFF"! I want to watch it but It's gonna remind me of P.I. and I have school. haha Oh well!

Finals

Is almost done! Hell yeah! Some test were easy, hard, ad some I was kinda "iffy" on. But overall I'm happy. I have 1 lonely geometry test to take now. And it's the class that I have the lowest grade in. So gotta get motivated to study tonight. I did ok on my tennis final, and ran a 8.6 on the shuttle run. Haha Spanish was really interesting and yeah. That's pretty much it.

I don't know if it's me... But I hope it is. :)

Finals

Can suck it. I have a lit test and the tombstone. Then I have a history test. And then a Chem test. Damn!!! But yeah. Today was whatever. Sometimes I just think I make myself look hella stupid by the way I act around other people.

So I put my ipod on shuffle when I was going to school. And Sunset- Marques Houston came on. And this was the very first part that came up. "Maybe one day we'll end up talking again, maybe one day we'll go back to being just friends." and then..." No matter what happened between me and you, I'll always be the man that you can run to..." So yeah. Marques Houston...why? haha

Its been awhile

Idk, my time in Philippines made me not write stuff on here. But I'm bored and I can't sleep. So yeah. I didn't do much today. I played for 4 hours straight of basketball last night...and damn it felt good. So good that I couldnt feel my feet. Finals week this week and then a 4 day weekend. My sports teams are on fire. Clippies one game under.500. We're so close! 6 game home winning streak. And for my Chargers...we had the 1st round bye and the Jets are our opponents next week.



So I still have the urge to talk about you. So still we talk when we have to. But I try not to make conversations. It hurts me to force myself to not talk to you...but it would hurt me more to know that I try so hard and nothing from you. Yeahhh...I think thats about it. I think about you. So if you guys see me just staring into space...then I'm thinking about you. I noticed I had alot of those times last week.